Now I’ve got that feeling once again
I can’t explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am

— the evil george roger waters

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This is the worst part.

That long, bleak period between sick and well. The days when you don’t feel well enough to do anything but don’t feel sick enough NOT to do anything.

I tested positive again today, on day 7. What does that even mean? I feel OK except for not feeling OK. The running brochure has some long blah blah wait five days after your first negative test to start running again blah blah blah but what does that mean? Never?

And so I go out to shuffle around the Skinny Cow course for 4 miles. Which seems to be a fine compromise between quitting and overdoing it. But who knows? Am I making things worse? Better? The same?

All I know for sure is that I had The Wall stuck on a loop in my head today, and I don’t even like that album very much.

This is not how I am.